That one unique, special apple in the tree…

I just wanted to say that I feel happier than I usually feel after possibly two months of this popping in and out of my head and about a week of thinking about this wonderful friend of mine, this great person that I had been friends with for… a little over two years?

About two months ago, I had felt a bit odd. It wasn’t a strange feeling, it was a… happy feeling. I couldn’t even stop smiling at one point. It was while I was laying in bed too, trying to get some sleep. I kept thinking about this person for some reason. He had been with me when I needed help, when I needed someone to talk to. He always knows how to cheer me up and make me laugh. He’s like… one of my best friends. I’ve got a special place in my heart for my BEST friend already and no one can replace that (no offense, lawl) but with this person, I had felt like I saw him as more than just a friend.

I had been recovering from another break-up a while before then, so I was very hesitant whenever I thought of it being a crush. As times went by, I stayed unsure. However, this person remained to be the same wonderful friend I know him as, the same person who makes me feel so happy.

A few days ago… I realized that he had liked me. Not just as a friend but as more than that. I was surprised, to say the least, considering how I had felt something myself but was so hesitant to believing it was true. I took the time to think about it, even having trouble sleeping as I thought…

I realized something the night before. I wasn’t unsure of my feelings… I was scared. I was scared of the idea of relationships ever since my last one. I was afraid of hurting him and I was afraid of being hurt.

But… what’s the point of love if I never give it another chance? I knew I liked him back, I really did. But my cowardice was holding me back. I realized that if I want to ever be in a relationship with someone who loves me for me and knows who I am as a person and knows me so well, I shouldn’t skip by the chance. Here I am with someone I enjoy being with so much, enjoy talking to, laugh with, have meaningful conversations with and even deeply trust right in front of me and I’m worried about how it would end up if we got together.

How on Earth will I ever find out if I never try?

What makes me confident about this is that… I trust him and he trusts me. No way in Hell am I passing this by.

MariaColette/MariettaRC <3 iamflip/SageFlip

Pre-Calculus Self-rant.

I just had the most irritating moment of my day today, trying to do my pre-cal homework. I was so frustrated that I kinda cheated with my graphic calculator because I was sick of trying to calculate crap without one and always getting it wrong. I’m pretty much failing the course because I’m such a procrastinator, I end up forgetting that I have to do homework and I fall behind.

This is a course where you get no extra chances to do your homework because it’s all on an online course. You miss a day, you can’t go back to it and that counts towards your grade.

I need to not be so goddamn lazy.

In case you’re wondering, I’m passing my other classes with flying colors so far while being equally lazy; this is the only class I’m having trouble with and it’s apparently important to my major.

If I keep it up, though, I don’t think I’ll get through college this way. I deserve it for procrastinating so damn much, I guess.

I’m exhausted. I’m going to sleep. And yes, I’m going to try to procrastinate less (or not at all) but it’s easier said than done.

… lawl, I copy/pasted this from MT and it even included the emotes. Interesting.

I DRAWED SOMETHING

Ahh, but I’m only partially proud of it. Not submitting to dA until I complete it but I NEED DRAWING ADVICE. D’:

Okay, I basically drew a good friend of mine and his wife on their Bishops. I like the way Nick (the guy) turned out, but Kimmi (take a guess) just looks… blah. :< If anyone can provide any C&C as to how to improve it, that’d be great. :3

http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c373/Sujinpuff/nickandkimmi.jpg

FAWK, IT’S COLD.

It’s nice and warm/cool/whatever’s in between that everywhere else but why does my dorm have to be FREEZING COLD?! T~T

Erm… yeah, anyway. Not much of Maple this week due to a lot of schoolwork. :3 I got another drawing coming up if anyone wants to see, though. It’s Maple-related! :D

Windia’s getting more awesome than it already is, I hear. Randy and Andy (haha, rhyme) are coming (back). :D Perhaps even Jackk? *wants to meet him* >_>

EDIT: I can’t comment in his blog, thanks to that stupid network error I keep getting but grats to him on almost 130!

I think someone loves me. :D

Check out the comments on my first blog. XD

Anyway, that aside, glad to see people know I’m alive. :B First of all, I wanna say hi to you awesome d00ds; Flip, Al, AJ, shyMAYHEM (B>other name to call you by D:<) and David! I just did my laundry (coincidence? @ Shy) and now I’m about to watch some CCS (Cardcaptor Sakura, for you clueless neebs). Maple… I’ll be on and off on that this week, got some college work to be done as well. x)

Gained 2 levels last week (or 4, if you count last Saturday), hoping to gain 4 more and hit 60 soon. :D Also hoping to get married soon once a certain someone is able to fix her Maple problem. *glares at KC*

I want to make a video of my level-up and triple advancement… I plan on advancing with two of my friends at the same time. Cooler than a double advancement, right? :D Sadly, I don’t have the HD space for video clips, so I’ll just screenshot the whole thing.

Drawing updates – check out my deviantART, I did something new. It’s my character and her 4 cats. :>

http://mariettarc.deviantart.com/art/MapleStory-Cat-Lover-97214195

Got nothing else to say – and with that, I’m off. :D I’ll work on the Bowman guide I have rotting on my pages when I’m not lazy. D:

I’m not dead.

Just don’t have anything interesting to write yet. :3

Well, well…

So this is WordPress. I’ll admit, I’ve used blogs before and always seemed to die off from them but I decided to give it another go.

So yeah… about me. I’m Karen, known on Maple as the Hunter named MariettaRC, formerly the Ranger known as MariaColette before someone destroyed my character, making me start over with the name I use now. I’m also in Windia, and only Windia. Some entries will be about random crap going on in my life but most of it’s gonna be Maple-related, so suck it up. D:

I also love to draw so I’ll probably make blogs based on recent drawings, but you can also visit my deviantART page for that ( http://mariettarc.deviantart.com/ ).

Let’s hope I can keep things moving here, eh? c:

- MRC